I Hate It!

I hate when guys feel that it's ok for them to question you but you can't question them. I also hate the fact of with all the questions still there's no relationship. So what's all the questions for? Hmmmmmm I hate it how no matter how hard I try guys never see the effort I put in they just see what they wanna see. Why must I do as he wants when he wants me to do it? I guess I'm better off by myself but at the same time I am by myself he just sticks around to be the dude above me. I hate that he chooses to watch my every move and the moves of those around me. I hate when he gets into his over possessive/stalkerish moods. Maybe one day I'll get the guts to let him go comletely, block him out my life in everyway.

Dear Heartache...

Dear Heartache:

You are like the only one that stays by my side even though I don't want you to be. I wish you'd just leave me alone and let me be. Why can't you step aside so I can feel love? I guess it'll never happen though. You've taken over any space love could have been. It's like I'm married to you heartache. I simply want to be seperated, a divorce would be better but might be asking for too much. Now I'm gonna be that b**ch that uses n***as the way they use me and break their hearts the way they break mine. It is what it is. People can't always have their way and you've proved that to me. Maybe that's why when n***as come along you come right along with them.

~*BABIIGURL*~

Why?

Why is it that every guy I come in contact with hurts me in some way? I won't put them on blast by saying their name but I'm sure they know who they are. I've had it all from dudes cheating and not saying anything til the girl is pregnant, to cheating with several chicks and not saying anything until the chick says something to me, and the ones that never let go the old but try to get the new too...smh I wish one day they could be real and stop having two sides to them. The secrets are eating me alive and the heartache is finishing me off.